One of the issues I have been struggling with is the reality of Christ in my life. No, I don’t mean I am struggling to believe that Jesus is real, walked the earth, died for me, rose again, and is in heaven right now waiting for the Father to say, “go get my children.” I believe that. Period.
No, the issue that I struggle with is if Christ is real TO ME. I truly have lived and am living a blessed life, with plenty of material possessions, a wonderful loving wife, 2 beautiful healthy children, a house, cars, etc… So many times I see what is around me and feel that I don’t need Jesus because every thing is good. What a lie Satan has presented me with!
I know I am a sinner, depraved and fallen, and I need Jesus in my life to be complete! But I feel that I have too much to realize that I need him only to be fulfilled and satisfied. I hate that I don’t long for Jesus at all times. I want that passion to know Him, to be more like Him, and to love Him will all I can.
I pray for the passion of and for Christ in my life that I may be all He can make me to be!
I can appreciate your struggle. I can honestly say there has never been a time in my conscious life I didn’t believe in God or that Jesus was Lord. It’s just I sometimes doubt that I’m allowing Christ to serve as my Lord. And I wonder what the implications of this will be.
Thanks for making me feel depressed… Merry Christmas!